I’m with you. Recognizing that we are actually creating suffering to feel validated in our efforts is a brilliant turning point. I hit this point in my 50’s and am still gradually letting go of that lifelong mind-track. In my initial stages of wanting to set the world on fire but realizing it was crushing me, I wrote this (and recited it daily): What if my purpose is simply the process? If that was true, I couldn’t get it wrong.